Pride

Pride. It's one of those things that isn't bad to have but to much can easily bring you down. Take me for example. I was probably to proud of myself for being able to do what I was doing in such a short amount of time in my last job. This led to an increase of my ego and in all likeliness my downfall.

I wonder if my pride is getting in the way again. I had a long talk with my significant other last night about our financial situation. We talked about me finding a job. Not just a scientific job but any job. I tried to explain that not just any job would be good. I didn't do a very good job of it and lost the argument. Likely, I lost because I let my pride get in the way. I was thinking why should I take some crap job at Mc Donalds, or Starbucks, when I have a college degree. Should I have to work for less than half of what I was making? This is why I lost the argument. My pride was blinding me. I am not so high and mighty that I can't work at these places. The money would be of help even though it wouldn't be enough.

No I could easily enough work at these places, and while my pride may take a blow, I'd recover. I wouldn't be stuck there the rest of my life. Only a short time of it. But, would I be happy there, or would I sink further into the abyss that seems so close to consuming me at times. Maybe that's how I should've went at my case. Sure, I could work at the places that were mentioned in our conversation, but I wouldn't be happy? Probably not. Would it be worth it financially? I don't know, but I do know that I'd be so miserable in doing such things that I would truly be unhappy and I don't think that's worth it. Especially if I feel like I'm being left no other options.